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Dangerous driving

There were a couple weeks where I would literally fall asleep at the wheel every morning. No matter what time I went to bed, no matter how awake I felt getting ready, the moment I sat in my car my eyes would start to roll to the back of my head and a couple times I actually fell asleep.

I opened my eyes startled by a car honking. Why? Because I swore I was in my bed and why the heck would there be a car honking my in bed? But even that didn’t keep me from nodding off again 2 minutes later when my heart slowed down.

I tried everything, waking up a bit earlier, waking up later and rushing, drinking a coffee before driving and during. Eating a light breakfast, eating a heavier breakfast, eating while driving, punching my leg, singing loudly but nothing would keep me awake.

I was scared every morning to get behind my wheel. I didn’t know if I would fall asleep that day and not make it to work. And I’m still scared.

However, the one thing I didn’t try was working out in the morning. A new gym just opened up down the street from my house and the boyfriends family all joined. Last Friday was the first day it opened. Knowing I wouldn’t be able to go after work, I decided to get up at 530am and get to the first hot yoga class.

While I was getting ready to go to work after my workout and steam room experience, I felt exhilarated. I had been awake for 3 hours already. I got in my car and drove to work. It was the first day in over a month I didn’t nod off.

Monday morning I didn’t go to the gym, and guess what? I was nodding off again. Tuesday morning I went to the gym and my drive in was smooth!

But today I went to the gym and for about 80% of the drive I was fine, until I got closer to work and I felt my eyes rolling.

I thought I found a solution to my dangerous driving.

I can’t not drive to work, otherwise I have no way of getting in. Does anyone have a solution? Or some idea as to how I can keep myself from seriously injuring myself and possibly others??

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Food for thought, or thoughts of food?

I’ve been slacking huge on my healthy lifestyle change.

In the last year I’ve lost 25 pounds, but I’ve also put on 6, so technically speaking I’ve only lost 19 pounds.

When I weighed myself in December I was the lowest I had ever been in my early adulthood. I was thrilled. And then Christmas came, and new years and valentines day and really anything else I can attribute to my recent weight gain.

I can feel it too. I can feel my new pants, the ones I bought because I lost weight, getting tighter. I’m scared!

What’s changed isn’t the amount I work out. I still go to bootcamp 2 days a week and run at least 3 days, some runs lasting anywhere from 2 hours to 3 and a half (that’s a lot of calories burnt). But my eating habits have changed.

Ever since the boyfriend and I moved out we’ve been drinking more frequently, eating way more junk and just overall not doing as well as we used to. We eat out more and I notice that I’ve been having larger servings. This is because I don’t have another girl to help me watch my portions.

When I eat at the boyfriends parents house, I try to take as little as his sister and mother. While I was living there, I had trained my stomach to feel full after such tiny portions, but since we’ve been on our own, I just go by what the boyfriend eats and give myself a little less, which ends up being a lot more than I would have eaten at his parents house.

I’ve also been snacking later at night. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m ALWAYS hungry. Even after I eat breakfast, I’m counting the minutes until I can eat my morning snack. And then I’m counting the minutes until lunch and the cycle continues everyday.

I’ve tried to come up with ways to fill up in the mornings, like a protein shake. It works but I think I have a weak tolerance for it because within a half hour I’m toppled over with stomach pains.

I’ve tried yogurt with granola and berries but that definitely isn’t enough. Ezekiel bread with jam, but I’m always so hungry. I don’t have time to make eggs and I don’t want to eat bagels.

I need help! I need suggestions. What can I eat and snack on that will fill me and satisfy me??

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I’m a Homeowner!

It seems I have started a trend on my blog. It’s how I start writing these days…”It’s been so long…” “I’m such a bad blogger…” “I promise I’ll blog more…” But all these promises are open promises and all my feelings of regret only last a couple of minutes. I’ve been busy, and this is not a lie.

I swear I haven’t had a minute to stop and write, let alone think of writing. Every once in a while I come back and catch up on some of my favourite blogs, but by the time I’ve caught up on their lives it’s time for bed.

I miss blogging, but only when I’ve had the time to actually think about it.

If you follow me on twitter (which I have also been slacking on), you may already know that the boyfriend and I bought a house. It closed on Monday. So we are officially home owners now! We don’t live there yet. We’ve decided to take our time, paint, furnish etc… and plan to be completely moved in by January.

The week leading up to our house closing was the most insane week in my entire life! The weekend before I had a trade show event I had to attend all weekend. By the time I got home on Sunday night  was so exhausted I passed out. On Monday morning I had my usual doctor’s appointment, which meant I had to stay later at work. Tuesday was the only day I could meet with the lawyer to close our house, so that also meant I had to stay at work later. Wednesday was the only full day I had to prepare for another tradeshow that was the coming weekend. That night the boyfriend and I went to visit his grandmother, who was very very sick (and unfortunately passed away this past weekend), and Thursday was the first day of the largest tradeshow of my career here. The tradeshow went all weekend and ended each day at 10pm. I was (and still am) exhausted. Monday we closed our house and got the keys.

My plan was to take the day off, but with being away at a tradeshow for two weekends in a row I had a ton of work to catch up on, so I came into the office for a couple of hours. Since I work close to the lawyer’s office, it was my duty to pick up the keys. I got the phone call at 3:30pm. I was so excited!!

 

So, five days later and I still haven’t caught up on sleep. We’ve been to our house twice this week and we’ve brought over toilet paper and a newspaper box… that’s pretty much all we’ve had time for. We were planning on starting our mini renovations this weekend, but with the passing of his grandmother that has been put on the back burner. Thank goodness we have family, like my father and his uncle, who love and are good at these types of mini renovations.

I promise I will put up before and after pictures. I just need to remember to take my camera with me when I go next time, otherwise there will be no before pictures to see.

But what’s new in the relationship, you ask? Well, not much. We’ve been learning to live together for the past 7 months, but it will never be the same as actually living together. I can’t believe it’s been 7 months since I moved out of my apartment in the city… Recently I’ve been trying to do a little more on my own. I love doing everything with the boyfriend, but I really do think it is important to spend a little time apart. I think it will become easier to do our own thing once we have our own place. I will be able to invite friends over, which will be so nice! I haven’t done that in such a long time.

I’m really looking forward to having our own lives, together.

Not working together has really changed our relationship. I feel like we are “normal” now. And we have more to talk about, even though I’m fairly certain he doesn’t really care about my workplace drama. I guess it’s hard to care when you don’t know the people. I have to beg him to tell me all about his workplace drama, otherwise he would never tell me willingly. It’s different because I know all the people he works with.

Oh, did I mention there is a bet on how long it will take me to get a cat. I’m going with 5 months. The boyfriend’s mom thinks it will be 3 months, max. I’m in love with their cats and when I’m away from the house for more than I day, I miss them like crazy. But these cats are not just your typical cat, they’re like dogs. They cry for your attention, they talk back to you (meow back?!?!) and they cuddle. I need a cat exactly like that! The best part about these cats, they’re like dogs but don’t require the work a dog requires, which is why I want one. I love dogs, but I don’t think I’m ready for their constant need of attention, walking, feeding etc… It’s too much work and it limits what you do. One day we’ll get a dog, but for now, I just want a doglike cat.

 

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Catch Up

So much has happened, where do I begin?!?!

Since I’ve started my new job I swear I haven’t stopped. The week flies by so quickly and the weekends are jammed pack with stuff I missed doing during the week. Every week night is spent looking for a house, yes that’s right, the boyfriend and I are looking for a house! How exciting!!

We’ve actually been looking since February, but it’s been serious the last couple of weeks. So serious we put an offer on a house already. We didn’t get it, but I truly believe that we didn’t get it for a reason and that there is a better house out there for us. It’s also a hot market right now, so we are bidding against people who probably have a little more wiggle room.

We are taking this weekend off from house shopping. It’s the Canadian Thanksgiving this weekend so we are dedicated to family gatherings every day. Except tonight. Tonight I am going with work to a football game. I’m pretty excited since we are in the end zone and have unlimited amounts of beer and junk food.

Oh! Speaking of junk food, I’m doing this “cleanse” type diet. It’s actually a powder that you mix with water and drink it before two meals. This product was originally made for people with diabetes. It regulates how fast your body breaks down the food and prevents an insulin spike. Since insulin turns into fat they noticed that people were losing weight on it and decided to turn it into a weight loss product. I’m still doing the traditional stuff, exercise and proper eating, but I thought I could use a little help since we are getting into the “fat” season. I always gain weight between Thanksgiving and Christmas and I would really like to avoid it this year since I had to work so hard to lose weight this year.

Speaking of losing weight, I put on my leather jacket that the boyfriend bought for me last season and it’s too big 😦 I never took that into consideration that any clothes I bought during my little weight slip wouldn’t really fit me now. Oh well, it doesn’t look terrible. I wasn’t THAT much bigger a year ago.

I’ve been a little stressed out about my friendships lately. I have this friend who has been dating the boyfriends friend, which I was all excited for at first. But when she started dating him I had a conversation with her about how I was going to feel when she starts becoming friends with all the other girlfriends and that I didn’t want to ever feel left out. I’m super sensitive to this friend stuff and I’ve lost so many friends I thought were true friends but turned out to not be, so I will do everything I can to avoid that. I told her that I want to be included in everything and that I was afraid that she was going to become better friends with the other girls. Did I mention this friend is my best friend? Well, since she started dating the boyfriends friend, it’s been happening, slowly, exactly what I told her I didn’t want to happen. I haven’t been excluded yet, but I’ve been getting the impression that I’m invited ONLY because I told her I didn’t want to be excluded. I get the feeling I’m not welcome and they would much rather be hanging out without me.

The boyfriend doesn’t understand. Boys are different. They don’t see things the way we do. He doesn’t understand that when we are invited to do something last-minute and our plans are not taken into consideration, they probably thought about us after the fact.

Anyway, I’m complaining. So enough of that!

It’s Friday and a long weekend! I hope you all have a fantastic weekend, and to my Canadians, I happy Thanksgiving.

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Our Anniversary in Maui

So it’s been over a month since Hawaii, but let’s see if I can remember it all…

Saturday night (the same day as the half marathon) we head back over to Maui. It was a long day and sleeping on airport benches are not fun, but we got to our resort and went right to bed. Sunday was our planning day. We booked all our adventures for the week and we went grocery shopping (the benefit about having a kitchen was we didn’t have to spend a ton of money on eating out). We were having a contest between the girls and the boys. We were required to make dinner one night, the girls one night and the boys another, then the boyfriends parents were going to judge who’s was better. The boys had to make theirs the next night and we were scheduled for Thursday. Lucky for the guys, we didn’t have much planned for Monday. We were going surfing in the morning but had nothing else for the rest of the day. It took them hours to make dinner. It wasn’t bad, and you’d be surprised to learn that this

didn’t taste horrible… it was actually quite good.

Surfing was so much fun! I’ve never done it before, and I was pretty nervous, but I picked it up fairly quickly. Tuesday we had planned to go to a luau for dinner, so Tuesday during the day the girls went shopping and the boys went golfing. I never really knew what a luau was, but it’s exactly like what I pictured. We eat dinner on the beach during sunset and they have a show of Hawaiian dancers and fire throwers. It was all you can drink, but with the boyfriends parents there I wasn’t going to drink too much.

Wednesday we drove to Hona which is an old traditional Hawaiian town. There is also a trail that you can walk that takes you through a bamboo forest and ends with a tall waterfall. It was gorgeous. We went into another town to do some shopping during the day and that night the boyfriend uncle made dinner for everyone.

So I haven’t mentioned what the boyfriend got me for our one year anniversary. At this point I was pretty upset. I tried to hide it, but as the week went on I just felt more and more hurt. Wednesday night after eating dinner, he pulled me aside and handed me a bag. I immediately started crying. This is very silly, but I was already so upset that it was 4 days after our one year I don’t think anything could have made me feel very good about the situation, and the fact that he handed it to me without a card/flowers/anything just made it worse. When I look back on the situation, I may have been a little tough on him and he did pick out a very nice gift. He bought me a gold Plumera flower ring with a small diamond in the center. The Plumera flower is the national Hawaiian flower. I realize now that it was a tough situation to be in. We were in Hawaii with his family so there really wasn’t the right time and place for a gift. And he did want to get me something from Hawaii for our anniversary, so I understand why he waited. I forgave him almost immediately after I let out my built up tears. He felt really bad and I felt really guilty for making him feel bad.

Now with that off my mind I was able to think more about the fun I was having. Thursday we went ziplining down an inactive volcano. It was the girls night to cook. Unfortunately we didn’t have as much time as the boys. We got back from ziplining around 7pm and everyone was starving. I sliced my finger open and the guys ended up helping us bbq while I tended to my finger. I’m biased, so I think our dinner was much better than the boys, even though we rushed.

Friday morning we went kayaking and snorkeling and we got to see sea turtles and some other water creatures. I could do that for the rest of my life, no wonder people move to Hawaii. That night we went to a restaurant called Mama’s Fish House and I don’t really like fish that much, but that was the best meal I had all week there. Maybe even on my top 5 list of best meals in my entire life. The fish in Hawaii is so fresh, it doesn’t taste anything like the fish you buy from your local supermarket.

Saturday was our last day. We did a bit of shopping in the morning and lounging by the pool in the afternoon since we didn’t really get a chance to do much of that during the week. And then we were off to the airport for our day long trip back home. We left Hawaii at around 10pm their time and arrived home at 7pm eastern time. It was a long day and I was jet legged for the entire week but it was definitely the best trip in my entire life.The love of my life!

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I missed my own anniversary….

You know how you know you’re a bad blogger? You miss your own blogversary. Yeah that’s right, I missed it. Not intentionally. I set up a reminder for myself on my phone and I even tweeted myself a little “Happy Blogversary” but I didn’t come to the one place I was actually neglecting, my blog.

So here’s a little update on my life:

I’m insanely busy at work and I get home around 6:30 every night, get a work out in, scarf down my food and either work some more or it’s already so late I have to go to bed. Weekends have been just as crazy, but busy with social activities (at least I’m getting some socializing in). This past weekend was a full weekend of drinking and I’ve made a decision to give it up…yeah right! Impossible with my job. So instead I’ve decided to just not drink this coming weekend.

The internet at home hasn’t been working. It works sometimes, mainly during the day when I’m not there. So this has kept me from posting anything. I know I could be writing something and save it for when the internet is up and working, but I’m lazy.

The boyfriend and I have been looking at places. We are considering moving out on our own, which is so exciting!!! But don’t get too excited, it’s not going to be as soon as you think. We are taking our time looking, we want to find the right place and not jump into the first thing we see.

I’m more in love with him every day. This change in my life has been so uplifting that I am able to really see the good things that I have, and one of them if my boyfriend. I am happier than I have ever been (with him, but also with my life in general).

The only thing I need to improve (well, it’s definitely not the ONLY thing, but it’s at the top of my list) is making more time for my friends. Maybe when I get settled into the job a little more and get into a groove I’ll be able to start planning my social life a little more.

I feel like I’m all over the place and I haven’t had any time to just sit down and think. But I’m not complaining, I love the way my life is turning out and I couldn’t be happier with any of my decisions.

I promise I’ll finish my update on Hawaii. I’ll even post some photos.

XXOO

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Hawaii, Half Marathon, Anniversary

It’s been awhile, huh?

So much has happened and yet I haven’t had much to say. I’ve been exhausted, I’ve been busier then I have ever been in my entire life and I keep thinking about my blog. I miss it, I miss reading my favourite blogs. It doesn’t help that I don’t own a computer of my own. Well, I do, but I haven’t seen it in over a year.

As you all know I went to Hawaii with the boyfriend and his family (the parents, the sister, the sisters bf, the uncle, the cousin and the uncles friend). It was the best vacation I have been on in a long time. It’s right up there beside Italy.

Our trip started out on Thursday August 18. We got up at 3am so we could get to the airport for our 7am flight. After two flights we arrived in Maui, but that wasn’t the end of our travels. A couple of months ago the boyfriend and I were thinking about running a half marathon this summer. So what better place to run my first half marathon than in Hawaii? We looked up local runs and we found one, but it was on another island. Our trip to Maui was already booked, so we didn’t want to change our flights. Instead, we booked a small island hopper.

I’m not sure if I have ever shared with you my extreme fear of flying. Well, I’m terrified of flying. I hate it. I hate the take off, I hate the landing and I hate everything in between. So I wasn’t feeling too happy about a small 9 seater.

Anyway, I suffered through it (it really wasn’t as bad as I thought), and we arrived on the big island at 8pm Hawaii time (that’s a 6 hour time difference, at this point we have all been awake for 23 hours).

We had one full day until the run. We felt so restricted. We didn’t want to eat anything too heavy, we couldn’t drink anything and we had to be in bed by 8pm the latest since we were getting up at 2:30am. So the first day in Hawaii was a little uneventful. We did do a little shopping and I bought myself and the boyfriend a pair of sunglasses.

Side note, August 20 is the boyfriend and my anniversary. Our run was on August 20. So the sunglasses was my gift to him.

It’s the morning of the race, and lucky for us we kept on the eastern time zone so when we woke up at 2:30am it really felt like 8:30am. Now this part is my favourite part of the whole trip (it will be an ongoing joke, that’s for sure). Since we were staying in the town of Kona (best coffee ever!) and our run was in Volcano two hours away, no cab was willing to drive us. So what did any normal person do instead? Take a limo of course! So we pull up to a community center in the smallest town in Hawaii. People were shocked. They had no idea who was inside the limo. They tell the limo driver he can’t park where he was because it would take up too much space, so we move it to a more hidden area. The driver stayed there throughout the run since he was going to drive us back. Apparently people were asking him who he drove in the limo, and his response? “Oh I can’t tell you, it’s top secret.” When we finished the run, we didn’t wait around for the awards. We decided to head back to the hotel to get ready for our flight back to Maui. As we drove off in our limo, everyone (and I mean EVERYONE) was staring! It was hilarious.

I bet you’re all wondering how the run went. Well I finished it! And that’s all that matters. But I did set another goal for myself and it was to try to finish it in under 2 ½ hours, and guess what? I did! I am very proud of myself, this was a huge accomplishment!

The first thing we do when we get back to the hotel (after showering of course) was head to the bar and get our first drink of the vacation. While we sat around the pool sipping our fruity drinks, it was then I knew this was going to be the best vacation.

What did the boyfriend get me for our one year? Well, there’s more to come. I don’t want to waste the whole story in one post 😉

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