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I miss this

I really do! I’ve barely had time to breathe though.

I’ve been so busy getting my personal trainers certificate, I’ve started teaching bootcamp and I’ve been spending every free moment at the gym.

I think about blogging, but then I can’t think about anything to say and I get frustrated and put it aside.

Part of the problem is there is nothing new in the relationship to talk about. We are both so busy we rarely spend a whole lot of time together. And when weekends approach we try not to make any plans so we can spend it together, but that never happens.

We hit a bit of a rough patch but we are working through it. I think it had to do with the fact that we haven’t had much time together, and I wouldn’t count the hour before bed, frantically running around the house getting ourselves organised for the next day, as “quality time”. It’s been tough. But we’ve been more open about our feelings and increased our communication so we don’t end up resenting each other because of it all.

It also doesn’t help that we are both conflicted with our careers. I’m so confused, and worried that I’ve chosen a path I’m not happy with. I don’t feel satisfied with my choice and I’m scared I’m getting too old to start something new. That and I would looooove to start my own business but financially it may not be possible. All this scares me. The boyfriend just isn’t happy and needs to figure out a solution to his discontent. He travels so far for work and it takes up so much of his “free” time, I would be frustrate too!! But he just doesn’t know what to do. We are both in a little bit of a funk.

And I miss reading all my favourite blogs as well 😦

Ohh to have time…

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I’m in love!!

I’m completely and utterly in love with fitness. So lame, right? But hear me out. It has nothing to do with it being a new year, new resolutions blah blah blah… I’m not one of those people (anymore) that make a new year’s resolution to lose 10lbs, 20lbs and work out hardcore for the first month or two and give up when I realize it’s too hard. No, that’s the old me, the me that made those resolutions years ago.

Last year I made a new year’s resolution to run a half  marathon, and guess what? I did! The resolution came from the fact that I started running before new year’s eve. It wasn’t long before. I remember I got on the scale in mid December and almost cried.

In my first year of university, I put on the freshman 15, however, my 15 ended up being 25lbs. And when I started to lose that weight in my second year, I promised myself I would never get back to the weight that I was (unless I was pregnant). When I got on the scale in December of 2010 I was over the weight I promised myself I would never reach. So what did I do? I started running, like the next day.

In the spring of 2011 I joined a bootcamp, which really helped with my training for a half marathon. I signed up for a half marathon in August and by the time it rolled around, I was 15lbs lighter. Yes, I was trying to lose weight, but it wasn’t my usual goal tactics. I set a fitness goal to run the half marathon and because I had that goal, it made it easier to lose the weight.

Since the half marathon, I’ve continued to lose weight (although I’ve put a little holiday weight on) and I am now 20lbs lighter than I was a year ago.

I am in love with fitness. Look what it does!

Of course, if you want to lose weight, you have to change everything about your habits. You not only have to start working out, but you also have to eat healthier. I made those changes. But that’s just part of fitness. I like to splurge on greasy, fattening foods. Sometimes I like to go to a Chinese buffets twice in one week (ok, ok, not often, I just did it once last week and I felt horribly guilty about it). But if you don’t have that piece of cake, or chocolate, or an extra spoon of pasta, then you will start to resent your chosen healthy lifestyle and most likely give up on it.

I’ve learned to control what I put in my body by balancing out how much I work out versus what I’ve had to eat. I also have to look at what eating too much, or unhealthy will do to my goal of running a marathon. How will I ever be able to run that long if I stuff myself with hamburgers on a weekly basis?

I pretty much eat the same thing every single day for breakfast and lunch. I’ll have Ezekiel bread with margarine and homemade jam with a coffee and only a little bit of cream for breakfast and a salad for lunch. The salad is usually the same, various vegetables with a little bit of feta cheese and light Greek dressing. Sometimes I will add quinoa or chickpeas or tuna. But rarely do I eat anything else. To keep variety in my day, I’ll eat something different for dinner. However, now that we are living on our own, I have to come up with healthy, easy, fast, dinner options. This is going to be the biggest challenge. But I have a new goal, and I am fairly confident that because I have set a new fitness goal I will be able to keep to it.

I am going to be running 30k in March. I’ll let you know how it goes and if fitness and I are still having an affair.

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Never Foget Your Cell Phone!

I forgot my cell phone at home yesterday. Who knew how much I could miss in only a couple of hours? I’m addicted to my phone, it’s pretty much attached to my hand. I’m not necessarily texting all the time, but rather reading tweets, checking out what’s new on facebook, and reading bbm status updates as they come.

I got home yesterday after what felt like the longest day of my life! But that’s a whole other story. It was around 8pm while doing the dishes when I realized I still had not checked my phone. So I run upstairs with the dishtowel in my hand and grab my phone. 3 bbm messages, 26 emails and 11 facebook messages later I finally felt caught up. Well, that was until I got around to catching up on the million bbm updates and actually looking at the what’s new wall on facebook when I saw it, one of my high school friends got engaged yesterday.

It’s not like she is the first person from my high school to get engaged, or married or has kids, but she is the first one of my actual friends to get engaged. My roommate from university got engaged, but we stopped talking a few years ago. So this friend is the very first friend, who I still talk to, that is engaged. I’m not saying this means anything, or that I’m even invited (we’ll have to wait and see) but it’s given me this feeling all day that I can’t explain.

Part of this feeling is realizing that I’ve kind of grown up; we’ve kind of grown up. I mean, I’ve always known I’ve “grown up”. I have a grown up job, I’ve moved out of my parents (but kind of moved back), I’ve bought a car (but sold it), I’ve been saving to buy a house etc… but having one of my close friends from high school get engaged is completely different. That’s like REAL LIFE! Marriage is real, more real than living on my own or buying my own car or having a real job. It’s combining two lives into one, for life (at least that’s what we hope for when we make those promises at the altar). And generally kids come after marriage, and if that isn’t real then I don’t know what is.

The other part of this feeling is a bit of sadness.

I’ve always wondered what it would be like when my friends started getting married. I always questioned who would be first.

I have a small group of friends from high school that I still talk with, and an even smaller group from elementary school. I even remember having the “who do you think will get married first” conversation with these friends. We all guessed I would be last, which I still think is most likely the case. But we could never decide on who we thought would take the plunge first.

Over the years our group of friends has changed, people have grown apart and some have moved on. But I’ve always tried to keep in contact with everyone and stay in the middle (or out of the middle in some instances). There was a time when this friend (who just got engaged) and I were best friends; well there were actually three of us. We did everything together! But I was always the one who lived further away and it was harder for me to be around all the time, so naturally the other two were much closer. As we got older we changed (as anyone would) and we started to grow apart. And even though our friendships have changed and are not what they used to be, I’ve still thought about who would be the first to get engaged/married.

When it happened, it made me a little sad. I thought about all the things the three of us talked about, how we would all be in each other’s weddings, and who would be the maid of honour, and how we would decide that when the time came. Maybe those dreams about our perfect weddings with our best friends were silly, but they are the memories that bring a smile to your face when you think back on them.

I’m so happy for my friend and I only wish her and her husband-to-be a life time of happiness and love.

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Healthy/Delicious Recipe #1

Ok you non health freaks, it’s time to eat better. Stop stuffing your faces with donuts and deliciousness… ok who am I kidding?!?! Why should we stop eating delish foods? So I’m going to provide you with a healthy, yet yummy salad that is easy to make and you can bring it for lunch.

HOLD THE PHONE!!!! Isn’t this a blog about relationships? and love? and all that other gushy stuff? Well, of course it is. But it’s also about life, and my life. And if we want to live any sort of life at all we need to keep ourselves healthy and happy. If your happy with your life then you can be happy in a relationship. I’ve learned that if you don’t feel confident with yourself, with your health and/or body then you can’t be in a healthy relationship.

Before I give you my awesome recipe (that I stole from the boyfriend’s mom) I’m going to tell you a side story about why I’ve decided to eat healthy and just overall become healthy (other than avoiding putting on any extra pounds).

If you refer back to my very first blog post I said “No guy should ever tell their lady they are fat”. Do I need to get into why? But I also go on to say that I dated a guy who may not have used the words “you’re fat” but he definitely implied it. I was extremely self-conscious and I hated everything about my body. I never felt sexy or wanted and I really needed that. It’s no wonder the relationship ended.

At that time I was also training for a 10K (my first real run!!) and I couldn’t run longer than 5 minutes without giving up. I knew I could do it, I knew I had it in me but I wasn’t confident enough with myself to actually make it through the whole 10K. When the relationship ended I had a realization that all those Cosmo articles I read are true: If you are not happy with yourself, you can’t be happy in a relationship. As soon as the relationship ended my running improved. I was able to run almost the entire 10K without too much trouble, and it has only been improving since.

I may have not lost weight, but my health and my happiness have definitely improved.

So, without further adieu:

Quinoa Salad
1 cup Quinoa
2 cups vegetable broth
peas (canned)
corn (canned)
1 red and/or green pepper
cucumber
light greek salad dressing to taste
Flaked tuna or chicken is optional

Bring vegetable broth and quinoa to a boil, reduce heat to low cover and cook for 15 min. Meanwhile, cook peas and corn. Once quinoa is cooked, fluff. Place in fridge to let cool. Dice the pepper and cucumber. Once the quinoa is cooled, mix all ingredients. Place in glass lunch container and refrigerate. Enjoy for lunch! (or dinner, whatever).

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It’s Monday… Again

Happy Monday!!

If I was a morning person I could get so much more accomplished. I would wake up really early, workout, get ready and eat breakfast. But I’m not, so I don’t.

The boyfriend and I have been going to the bootcamp for 2 weeks now and we have to keep track of everything we eat. One of the first things they told us we were doing wrong was eating a shitty breakfast. We were having instant oatmeal or a Tim Horton’s bagel. Apparently that’s really bad!! So we’ve cut out the instant oatmeal and the delicious bagels. Instead we’ve been eating Ezekiel bread (which is supposed to be really good for you, no preservatives etc..) and a protein shake.  I have noticed a huge difference, I’m not hungry at 10am anymore and I can totally wait until lunch to eat. And then I am not hungry in the afternoon and I can wait until dinner to eat.

I am really serious about this bootcamp thing. I want to follow the rules so I can see a difference, otherwise I wasted money on the damn thing. We are only allowed 2 cheats a week, we have to drink a ton of water and we can’t eat white carbs, “If it’s white, it ain’t right!”. I think I’ve done a good job!!

The one thing I am not doing a good job on is not drinking. It’s not like I drink a lot anymore, but I told myself I would try not to drink at all and have soda water instead. Sometimes it works and others, well I end up having one or two (which isn’t so bad, but do you know how many calories are in ONE beer?? and I love beer!!!!).  But you can’t deprive yourself of everything, otherwise what’s the point?

So, there is something I have kept from all of you. I am moving, again! Not that that’s a big deal, but I’m moving back home… Why? well I need to save money. If you have a choice to live at home or to live on your own, live at home! It’s cheaper and you can save to buy your own place one day. I started to big move yesterday. I’ll miss living on my own, and in the city (since I’m moving out of the city), but I know that in the end this is for the best.

The crazy part of it all is that if I didn’t move out of my parents house a year ago I probably would not have started dating the boyfriend as soon as I did, or even at all. Who knows. But I know that being out of my parents house had a huge factor in it all. So I look back on this experience fondly. And the apartment I live in is where the relationship began. He helped me move into the apartment even before we were dating. However, as with everything in life, this is just the next chapter and I look forward to the change!

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