Give it Another Chance!

Happy Tuesday!

I was in the process of writing a blog about how much my life sucks, but I’ve decided to try and be more positive. I’ve lived majority of my life thinking negatively about everything. I see a glass half empty rather than half full. From now on I will try to be an optimistic thinker…

Anywho, I went to ribfest this weekend with the fam jam (this includes my mom, my sister, her fiancé and their two adorable kids, my aunt, my cousin and the boyfriend) and we had a grand ol’ time! However, it was one of the nicest days we’ve had so far, so I decided to wear a something suited to the weather. Well, the next day my mom decided to post photos of the great adventure and what did I see, someone in a fat suit wearing my damn clothes! I was pissed. I couldn’t believe someone would be mean enough to dress like me, do their hair like me and dress in a fat suit just to make me feel bad about myself. But then I took a closer look, and I realized THAT PERSON IN THE FAT SUIT IS ME!!!!!!!!!! WTF?!? When did I get so big? I thought I lost weight/inches doing bootcamp. Apparently not.

Ok, so to go along with my new positive attitude I thought “Amanalynn, what can we do so that you don’t ever look like that in pictures again?” And the solution was: ……… I didn’t have one.

I have a really great boyfriend. He’s super supportive and will do anything for me. I love him more than anything. But, when he suggested we do P90X, I got upset. If you don’t know what P90X is, check it out here. Both the boyfriend and I have done this workout before. I didn’t complete it. Tony Horton’s voice drives me up the wall and before I gave up I would actually get angry when it was time to do the workout. So, naturally I got angry just thinking about starting it again. BUT, it works, like really works! I only did it for 45 out of the 90 days and I saw a major difference. The boyfriend finished it and he looked amazing!!

As Tony Horton would say, it’s not that I can’t do it, it’s that I currently struggle with committing myself to working out for an hour and a half every day. You get one rest day every week, but since the boyfriend and I are also training for a half marathon, we wouldn’t actually get a rest day. And our workouts wouldn’t be just an hour and half of P90X, we would also have to include 5 runs a week, some of them will be over an hour.

Another option is to continue my current workout regime, but also cut my portion sizes. Although, I’m afraid of being hungry. Like it’s a real fear… hungerphobia?! I don’t think cutting my portion size is an option, and I don’t really eat that much anyway.

What is a girl to do? Should I suck it up and try P90X one more time?

The Diet *sigh*

UGH I’m getting so pissed and annoyed!

Like every other girl on this planet I am trying to lose weight. I made that realization back in December just before the holidays when I stood on the scale and realized I weigh about 20 pounds more than I did 4 years ago… GROSS.

So ever since that depressing realization I’ve been working out between 3-6 days a week. I stopped drinking (well, I stopped drinking as much, I might still have a glass of wine every once in a while), I started eating somewhat better, but still having dessert almost every day. I feel good! I’ve tried to avoid weighing myself too much so that I don’t get discouraged. But two days ago I was at the gym, all sweaty and feeling amazing and I decided to take that step onto the taunting scale to see how much weight I may or may not have lost. You want to know how much weight I’ve lost?? Probably not, but I’m gonna tell you anyway, five pounds…FIVE.POUNDS?!?!?!?! In two months I’ve only lost 5 pounds. W.T.F?

This is so depressing… I thought I would have gotten on that scale and saw at least 10 pounds. Now when I watch the biggest loser I yell and curse at the women who are losing 9 pounds IN A WEEK and cry about it, saying it’s not enough blah blah blah…

So I’ve decided to eat even better! Because I can’t really work out too much more, unless I want my life to consist only of work and working out… EFFFFFFF THAT! I love love love carbs, more than anything in the whole world I love carbs! I can’t even think of the idea of cutting them out and being able to live. But I’m going to try. The only down side is EVERYTHING has carbs. Fruit, vegetables, milk, rice, pasta… everything! I live on my own, and cooking for myself is hard enough when I have pasta and sauce lying around my house, what on earth am I supposed to cook if I can’t even eat that?

So this weekend, my goal is to find things I can make that have less carbs and don’t cost too much. I’m determined to have a “beach body” by August when I go to Hawaii. I can’t be running a half marathon with my stomach hitting my chin on every bounce.